resume is now completely revised, and hopefully no longer sucks. with luck, dori will get back to me by sunday and i'll give cynthia my resume on monday. if anyone else feels like proofreading and editing my resume, let me know and i'll send you a copy.

had really bad dreams last night. they weren't very restful, so i was tired and couldn't wake up out of them. i kept dreaming that i woke up, though, usually into a new bad dream. one of the dreams involved the upstairs neighbor breaking in and threatening me as soon as stark left for work, and then hiding in a closet or spare room or something. it was one of those dreams where when i *really* need to scream, i can't speak above a whisper. that's one of the dream things, along with trying to fight back and not being able to punch any harder than a slow push, that really fucks with me because i never have a chance to be shown in real life that those things *don't* happen. and then i feel helpless because i'm convinced i'll choke up when it's really important.

but anyway, all of the tiring bad dreams meant that i didn't wake up till after 1pm. i suck. i *really* need to be getting up earlier, and instead i just get up later and later. i *am* going to walk down to the blueberry farm today and see what they have in the way of fruit and produce. and if i'm not dead tired afterwards, i'll walk up to safeway and get a bottle of cumin and a bottle of coriander.

adam got in a car accident and his girlfriend continues to guilt trip him. from what he writes, it seems that his relationships involve way too much enduring, compared to the actual good stuff. note to adam scrogham: not you, different adam.

yesterday was kinda crappy - two separate discussions with stark about stuff that makes us feel bad overshadowed the happy fun stuff... although i can't remember what the first discussion was about. maybe it's all in my head. hopefully, despite my bad start, this day will go better. after all, i have already finished revising my resume. maybe my dreams are just making me remember everything as sucky, no matter how bad it was at the time.

i need to figure out what to do about consolidating my student loans - anyone know about the relative merits of collegiate funding services, college loan corporation, and bank of america? - do the second edit of my resume, go for a walk, and make dinner. tonight we snuggle up and watch buffy.

new cell phones should arrive on tuesday, and i'm still waiting on my last box, which could get here as late as mid september.